failure!

Today i have figured out that i aint a go0d dental surge0n..
Dr.G told me,out of all house 0fficers, to extract upper prem0lar and wat did i do?i just cudnt extract it!yes...i dont think i m a go0d dental surge0n!
i w0nder why i m still practising it!

t0 study 0r n0t t0 Study..!

I have made up my mind.i have to think about my future myself,i cant be liability on anyone.yes not on u as well.i have faced my failures myself and now i have to face my success myself as well.
lately i have been trying hard to study for part one examination but i just cant bring myself to study.whenever i open some bo0k i feel like sLeeping,whenever i make some plan to study i feel like checking my face book account.i have so many distracti0ns dats y i cant study.
anyway..if i have to clear these examz in first attempt,i need to study hard,infact harder.
Good luck to me!

15 cartridges...do 0r die

From the very 1st day of my r0tati0n at 0ral surgery department i have been afraid of diagn0sing the diseases.To me diagn0sing is not just a piece of cake,unlike others,who enjoy while diagnosing, i have this fear which terrorizes me whenever i m 0n a diagnosis chair with some patient..

Apart from misdiagnosing the diseases,i also have the fear of 'dealing' with the patients.I m very good at socializing with people.but m worst at managing the patients in pain.telling them that we cant extract their painful tooth and cant relief them of the excruciating pain, is just so cruel.and i never wanted to be an implacable dental surgeon.

As far as i believe,dental surgeons cannot negotiate with the patients ,its a do or die situation.i cannot return the patients with malady , i cannot tell them that i cannot treat them and bring their misery to an end..m sure that its in our hand to heal the patients and not send them back with some useless placebos.

anyway..i hope i suceed in letting this fear go 0ff 0f me...n one day i will own a clinic where i dont have to send the sufferer back by telling him that i dont have enough cartridges of L/A ,so come back laters!

such an ass i m!

m a Rebel..

They say i wont make it to the top of the hill
wont take the fruit off the tree..
and everybody says m out for the kill
they are laughing at me..
but
i'm a rebel,dont u just know.


Despite the fact that i have always tried to acheive all my dreams and i have worked really really hard to do watever i wish to d0,now i m totally d0ne with this hard-w0rking sh*t.
now i want to just lay back and enjoy the beauty of the life,without ever w0rrying about my career,my dreams,my wishes and my aims.


Never ever wash my old blue jeans,
and brush the smile off my face,
but still im a member of the
human race,human race,human race.
im a rebel,dont u just know.

w0und is open..

I vehemently condemn the idea of treating oral diseases of the patients without using local anaesthesia.During my student life i studied that "dentistry is a painless field",so this surely means that we dont have to woo the patient,we have to make him comfortable while going around his oral cavity.
Yes,u can reduce the pain by increasing the dose of L/A,yes u can trim down the intensity of pain by reducing his anxiety,and yes u can decreace his anxiety by not calling him UNCLE /AUNTY when he/she is just your age. i hate it.
I wish i could bring back the time where i had to decide about my career and should have opted BBA/MBA and not BDS because i hate when we treat humans as guinea pigs and try our inhumane experimental techniques on them.I hate when we remove the sutures without even considering the fact that they have intact nervous system which responds well to pain stimuli.I wish some day, some patient ,whom we not treat as human,should slap a dentist just to remind him that the pain which dentist gives him is equal to the pain of the slap.

Bring me the pain..

Lord,y did u gave us 3rd molar wen we had to extract it ,one day or the other.

I aint got a chickenheart.neither m to0 brave..but surgeries wasnt my fear at all..

my biggest ph0bia t0 date was Driving but lately i think Oral surgery is terrorizing me day and night.

T0day there was a case of wisdom tooth which was partially impacted ,anyway Dr.G tried his luck on extracting it with coupland elevator,he did laxate it a bit,but the tooth was a stubborn one,it didnt want to come out that easily.patient was in pain,initially he didnt apply that much pressure,but as the doc applied more pressure,there was marked increase in the pain.TMJ of the patient started clicking.it took more attempts to elevate the tooth ,but the tooth didnt move a bit.so finally the b0ss decided to pull the tooth through surgery.and yes it did come out but the patient went through a lot of pain.

i dont think i can pursue my career of dentistry anymore.dentistry is supposed to be a painless field,but the pain is increasing day by day.

squamous Cell Carcin0ma..do or die!

I used to think that i was more interested in 0ral surgery but after watching the surgery of squamous cell carcinoma ..i dont think i have zero percent interest left in oral surgery..surgery for me is just extracting teeth n thats it.anyway yesterday i had a chance to watch/observe/assist an Excisional biopsy of Squamous cell carcinoma of buccal mucosa which invaded to mandible.if u ask me seriously,i dont think i know anything about squamous cell carcinoma.i have searched it on internet as well..but i havnt understo0d a single w0rd.i think i need to study my 0ral path0 bo0k.
anyway coming to the surgery,it was curettage of tumor along with smoothening of bone .ALLAH SAYEEN, i swear i didnt get a single bit of it.i need to study hard.esp tumors n cancers.n cysts n basic dental diseases.i believe the dental surgeon inside me is dying a slow death.I need to study hard,infact harder to bec0me a successful dental surgeon.why m i using the word "Surgeon" ,i aint a surgeon,i cant stand the sight of surgery.now i need to rethink about my career."operative" might be a better opti0n 0r may be "0ral path0l0gy" or may be i should become a nursery teacher,i adore kids..

i hope the patient who had surgery lives a happy n healthy life.his son was so happy after the surgery/butchery.